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I’ve sensed the presence of a “superpower” in nature, though I couldn’t define it.
Around 14 or 15,
I explored Christianity and Buddhism.
Eventually
I abandoned.
Because many doctrines seemed logically unconvincing.
Around 18 or 21,
I sought deeper connections with the world through scientific knowledge.
Yet
I recognized a gap —an inability to perfect measurement.
Around 23,
I lose clarity on both truth and meaningness in the external world and the internal self-understanding.
So
I fall into Nothingness.